It’s my party and I’ll ramble if I want to; The Birthday Blog
You know those super annoying people who write social media posts on their birthdays with #blessed, gushing about how lucky they feel to have so many wonderful people in their lives sending them love and wishing them well on their special day (I’m sorry if this is you I’m describing, but I’m doing my puke face by the way, since you can’t see it)…Well…I think I’ve become one of those people.
No joke.
Okay, so I didn’t do the hashtagged post - thank you by the way, if you wished my HB last Wednesday:) - but I literally walked around on air all day thinking about how freaking great my life is.
No, I didn’t get loads of flashy presents (though I did get some awesome cards from my little family - see the pic), yes, I am working two jobs (on different days), yes, I have a cold which Little brought home from nursery (“Another bug?” I hear you say…yep, yet another!). But even with all that, for the first time since I can remember in my nearly four decades of life, I feel AMAZING.
Everything is as it’s supposed to be. I have time for all the things that are important to me and I know I have all I need and then some. How do I know?
It didn’t just happen overnight. It didn’t just happen at all. I put the work in, got the help I needed and got myself to the place where my life has been carefully crafted, thought out in tiny detail so that it’s perfect just for me.
I genuinely never knew it could be this way. I mean, when I hear people talking about how at peace they are and how happy they feel regardless of life’s challenges they sound high or delusional (or potentially both!)…and yet, somehow, without drugs or psychosis, that’s where I am!
“You’ve got to work hard, Nothing in life is free, You can always do better,
Aim higher,
Be more,
Do more,
Work harder,
Be perfect,
Be quick,
Be patient,
Be quiet,
Stand out from the crowd,
Make an impact,
Be strong,
Be submissive,
Be grateful….”
So many things to be and do, so little time to actually think about what is important to YOU.
I am by no means a finished product, the road ahead is long and winding. But what I can say is that on my birthday I took a pause and looked at how far I’ve come. And I am proud. I feel great because there have been other milestones when I have taken time to reflect and been less proud, less happy…and I did something about it.
By far the best thing is that I get to help other people do something about it too!